I recently started a new phase in my life. A phase that, with all honesty, terrified the heck out of me. I made a decision that had been on my mind and heart for far too long, but I had truthfully denied and ignored it, as I had convinced myself I was mistaken. I mean, who did I think I was? Was this even the right decision? And what if I failed? I know I can’t be the only one who struggles, who second-guesses most, if not all decisions. I am afraid and intimidated of the unknown.
A Big Part Of Me
After almost four years at my job, (a place that had been such a big part of who I was), I was faced with the constant questions: Was it time to move on? Was it time to let go and let God lead me into a new path? The answer should have been fairly simple, right? Either a yes or a no should have been sufficient, but unfortunately, that wasn’t the case for me.
My emotions were getting the best of me and I was a mess. I had not only made amazing friends but I also felt like I was part of an amazing family. I was surrounded by people who cared and loved me deeply…these were my kind of people!! How could I leave them behind? How could I betray them this way? I was also comfortable with my job and wasn’t it okay to keep holding on to this? Wasn’t it okay to be comfortable and not step out of that?
Reality was, I was making excuses. I was playing small!
The Decision- Closing a Chapter
When I finally made the decision to leave this job, it was not easy at all. It was probably one of the hardest things I have had to do. I cried and told myself I was making a mistake and then cried some more. Deep within though, I knew this was no mistake.
My God, my Universe, my angels had put it in my heart to follow through with this. I needed to let go of what was familiar and comfortable in order to step into my calling, my passion, my purpose in this life. And yes, it was going to be messy, scary, and uncomfortable, but boy oh boy was it going to be worth it. I felt it and still feel it so deep within me.
The Lesson in Letting Go
In life, how often do we hold on to things, people, or situations believing they still serve a purpose in our life? We hang on for dear life because we truly believe all these things are part of, and will always be a part of, our journey. What we fail to understand, is that circumstances and people are only meant to be a part of our lives for a little while, only to teach us a lesson.
Reality is, we are not doing ourselves a favor by holding on to anything, we are only creating resistance when we refuse to let go. We are blocking the goodness and the opportunities to come into our lives.
In this particular part of my life, letting go and closing this chapter was exactly what I needed to do. It has allowed other opportunities to flow into my life because I simply made a decision and took action. I was ready to jump in and do the scary, uncomfortable, but rewarding things because I knew they would all be worth it.
I was closing a chapter in my life and preparing for a new one knowing that I would be guided, protected, and loved by a higher power every step of the way.